How did you come to the lord?

How did he reach you?

Here is where we can boast in the lord our God!

Mitch you should answer the questions too! HA!

I grew up in a Christian home. But it was probably early High School that I took my faith as my own! I admired an loved (still do) my parents, but I didn't realize God wanted a relationship with me, Emily. He is My Savior, Healer, Father, Provider, Protector. He is now MY everything!

I grew up in a life not too outgoing it was mainly filled with endless hours of video games. This continued until i joined the football team and i decided it was time to find a life. I found a need to be accepted and i did things i regretted and detested all for a cheap laugh. i went to all "cliques" and groups doing the same thing never fitting in or feeling accepted. I started to feed my feelings with music and more video games to numb the fact that i felt terribly alone. i began having depressed thoughts and doubted myself. It seemed my dad worked all the time my mom was to caught up in her bills and her boyfreind and my sister just plain out hated me. My grades plummeted. and i continued to numb myself with games and music. And eventually i became addicted to pornography as well. this went on till the wrestling season when i noticed the pictures the music the games didn't amount to anything i kept looking for attention from everyone else and i kept coming back void as it went on i felt my depression my anger my frustration grow and i was furious at life and at myself. I hid my real emotions behind a wall of "smiles" no one knew me... Eventualy i thought what was the purpose of life. Is there one? Is there hope...
I began having suicidal thoughts. I became emotional and temperamental. One day at wrestling I put all my frustration towards one of my friends and nearly injured him he was just as surprised as I was as I choked my tears and pride. That night i was tempted to end it all. As my depression let up a little thinking "its just a phase" and eventually i was brought to the church. There i saw hope and i returned repeatedly so i could feel that something i found in worship if only for a few minutes. Eventually i went to Dare to Share in Chicago Illinois.When i heard what he said i relinquished my heart and i mourned over my blindness, my depression, my fake faces, and my biggest sin even though i claimed to be in Christ i never gave up my addiction to pornography. And i knew it was killing me that day i relinquished my life to Christ. For the first time in years a tear of joy flowed down my face. i felt it roll down my cold cheek and hit the floor. I truly realized i was loved. That Christ died for me! that i truly did belong i did have a purpose i did have someone who loved me unconditionally i did have hope. Since then my depression has been healed my addictions nailed at the feet of the cross and my future secure. HAIL THE KING OF KINGS!